Yesterday, i was feeling a bit down (and exhausted from working something like 20+ hours in 30 hrs time), and decided to partake in some retail therapy. as i went in and out the stores, i approached rite aid to get some toiletries. as i head in some older man approached me and tried to say something to me....he had - what appeared to be - a bad stutter or some kind of speech impediment. he didn't make any sense. there were merely sounds and no actual intelligible words heard. i looked at this man as if he was a freak, and undoubtedly gave him a very stank look. (this area - as most of my town - is known to have a lot of street beggars or whatever the PC title is these days.....they are very common.)
as i walked around rite aid, i started to think......gee, that was a really mean look i gave that guy. i could have chosen to just walk away, there was no reason for the nasty look i gave him. it was really unkind. damn, i'm a real fucking jerk.
i finished up my purchases at the store, and get $5 back from the clerk. i leave the store and looked around for my stuttering friend. i saw him & handed him the $5. he tried to utter out something. i just winked at him and walked away.
i didn't do it to be kind to the man. i did it cause i felt like a jerk, and needed to right that wrong. but still it didn't. all i was doing was paying for my sin......
